Sunday, April 18, 2010

It's sort of hit...

I have hoped this wouldn't have come...but these last few days I have felt like I can't take this deployment any longer. Which I know I can & I know I will. I don't know why it has hit me all of a sudden, but it has. I think it's because I only have just a "while" before hubby comes home for R&R. And the anticipation is too much some days. All I can think about is what we are going to do when he comes home or how I am going to feel & react to seeing his sweet face for the first time in a long time. It's only been the last couple of days that I have felt like this & it's on the days I can't talk to him. The days when he calls I don't ever feel like this. It's weird, but it's fact. And now that I know more of what he is doing over there, I am full of fear at times. I know my husband went over to a "war zone", but to actually hear of him talk about the "war zone" makes me cringe. This month is just alot of emotion. I pray it gets easier & I will be back to my normal self in a few days. Of course, he always tries to reassure me that everything is ok & he's in the safest place he could be, but sometimes it still doesn't help the worries. :(

3 comments:

Lisa said...

I completely hear you. Although P is coming home at the end of his deployment, I sort of feel like I can't take it anymore either.

Frustrating, isn't it? We're SO close to seeing them again!

ancient one said...

(((((hugs))))

Pen Pen said...

I'm sure it is hard, Jess... hang in there and pray, pray, pray (which I know you already do) for Matt! We are praying too! Love you!