Friday, January 29, 2010

Well it's almost been a month...

A month has almost come & gone since "D-Day" lol. It has been a pretty fast month with everything going on. I have decided to move back home with my parents for the time of my husband's deployment. Some may say that's not a great idea, & of course I had to consider it as well...but all in all it has been good so far. I enjoy the company & not to mention them helping me out with little Charlie. I've been able to talk to Matt everyday since he has been in Washington state for the past month, so that has been helpful. And, last weekend I was able to go visit him there while they had some time for leave. I'm so glad I went!!! We had gone back & forth on whether or not for me to go (only because Matt thought it would be putting me through the hardness of leaving him again), but we finally decided that I "needed" this time. It was my last "see ya later" before he actually left the United States. So, off to Washington I went. First time flying by myself. I was a little nervous at first, but the anticipation of seeing him kept me going & wasn't a big deal at all. We had so much fun together & it was a relief to see each other again for a couple of days. He was glad I came:) On the way back was not as fun lol. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but it was still sad. The closer I got back to Raleigh the bigger the lump in my throat grew. My parents came to get me from the airport & on the way home a little bit of that lump was released. It had to be. But, I've been home for a week now & was still able to talk to hubby. They ended up leaving yesterday to head over to Ubekistan (sp?) for processing until being able to head over to Afghanistan. Last I heard from him he was in Canada getting ready to leave for Germany. But, I just heard from another Army Wife & they are still in Germany right now delayed because of the weather. So, pray for them as they keep traveling to their final destination. I miss him so much, but I'm glad we are finally starting the journey so we can get the time done & he can be back here with me.

My days are ok, but my nights are lonely. I have so many thoughts running through my head of all the emotions that I feel, but nothing would come out right if I decided to share! I have a little anxiety about the whole situation but I know I will be ok & I have tons of family & friends praying for us! And that I am thankful for!

Today we have snow & it's such a relaxing day...sure wish hubby was here with me to enjoy!!!

I miss you & love you!!!


ancient one said...

Love you Jessica !!

Pen Pen said...

You are so strong and I admire you and Matt for your sacrifices! We love you and pray this year will speed by for you guys!

Beka said...

I moved back with my parents too for this year long deployment! Everything has been going way better then I expected! I was kinda dreading moving back home but it's been working out. It is nice to be around the family. :) People told me I shouldn't move back hom but I'm glad I did. I'm glad it's working out for you too! :)

I'm glad you got to see him once more!