I have hoped this wouldn't have come...but these last few days I have felt like I can't take this deployment any longer. Which I know I can & I know I will. I don't know why it has hit me all of a sudden, but it has. I think it's because I only have just a "while" before hubby comes home for R&R. And the anticipation is too much some days. All I can think about is what we are going to do when he comes home or how I am going to feel & react to seeing his sweet face for the first time in a long time. It's only been the last couple of days that I have felt like this & it's on the days I can't talk to him. The days when he calls I don't ever feel like this. It's weird, but it's fact. And now that I know more of what he is doing over there, I am full of fear at times. I know my husband went over to a "war zone", but to actually hear of him talk about the "war zone" makes me cringe. This month is just alot of emotion. I pray it gets easier & I will be back to my normal self in a few days. Of course, he always tries to reassure me that everything is ok & he's in the safest place he could be, but sometimes it still doesn't help the worries. :(
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I completely hear you. Although P is coming home at the end of his deployment, I sort of feel like I can't take it anymore either.
Frustrating, isn't it? We're SO close to seeing them again!
(((((hugs))))
I'm sure it is hard, Jess... hang in there and pray, pray, pray (which I know you already do) for Matt! We are praying too! Love you!
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